Once again, not the best use of my time, but I'm so stressed out this is about all i could think of to burn some destructive energy...  alas, this has become quite the problem...

Le sigh, things don't really change much with me, I'm realizing.  My friends are amazing and try in everyway possible to be great friends to me and loving and helpful and my gosh they are more than they know!  but i still think i send them away thinking they have failed or feeling dejected.  I am so sorry.  That is all I can offer you right now... perhaps when I figure out what is going on I can offer an explaination.  Until then, I am sorry. 

Either God is on serious vacation, or I have my headphones and blinders on with the music cranked up and the darkness has covered my eyes.... 

sorry for the depressing post...  here's something that will brighten, well, at least my day.   http://www.piczo.com/annealovesya9080  yeah that's my awesome sister. 

Of all the things I should be doing right now, this is surely not one of them!  Ah well, I think it's time for an update. 

Understatement of the year: God is great.  Great? Yeah, ok.  He's flippin awesome!!!!!  I'm still kinda upset (to be explained in a moment, don't worry) but I've decided to believe Jer 29:11 "for I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you..." and trust that He knows what He's doing even though I don't understand. 

Someone please take the chocolate away... i .. can't.. get .... away from it! ack! 

So there are all these people outside today cuz it's so nice out and there are a bunch of people throwing baseballs and such.  And I realize that i'm supposed to be joining my chuch's softball team like within the week or so and I have never played softball in my life... nice. 

So, why am I upset?  My daddy had to have yet another operation this morning.  To be perfectly honest I don't understand why he has to go through more of this, and my mom too.  I mean really, haven't they had enough already!?!?!?! *sigh*  All I can do now is wait to hear how he's doing and pray that all turns out well.  In light of that, my roomie found this great verse, 2 Corinthians 1:3-5 "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.  For just as the sufferings of Christ flow over into our lives, so also through Christ our comfort overflows."

Tahoe update: I get to meet the girls (Steph, Becca and Linz) for dinner tomorrow night!!  I'm so excited, I finally get to meet Linz and can get to know the other two better.  Support raising is interesting... I got a confirmation last night for a major blessing, I'm pumped and God is so good to me.  I get to start returning calls tomorrow for the first batch of letters I sent... I've got butterflies! 

Ok, so it's really time to get moving on homework cuz i've got a whole bunch of it!  This quarter is gonna be a little rough, but I think it'll be one of much growth and even a little fun.  Here's hoping! 

No really, I need someone to resue me from myself... take the chocolate away! 

Happy National Pig Day!  Well, yesterday I guess.  And no, I'm not joking. 

So I got accepted to go on the Lake Tahoe summer project this weekend.  At first I was kinda like ok, that's neat, that's one of the top places I wanted to go.  But I  knew that getting there would be a whole nother battle all together.  Then I talked to my parents.  I had expected to have to convince them to let me go, talk them into being ok with me spending the summer across the country and all the money it will take to get there, etc.  Ok, well God has a great way of knocking down expectations. My parents were really supportive and excited for me that I was accepted.  My mom especially surprised me, she asked about getting a job and even complimented Crusade (which she's never said anything good about before). 

Even more, my grandma, who is 94, moved out to Walnut Creek (about 45 min from San Fransisco) about 6 years ago.  Right now it is looking promising for me to head over there (about a 3 hour drive from Tahoe) after project with my aunt and uncle who actually have a cabin at Tahoe, and visit her for a little bit before returning home.  I'd love to be able to take advantage of this, because I don't know if I'll have another chance to see her again.  I just got off the phone with my uncle (great guy) and he said that if there was anything they could do to facilitate at all to let them know!  This is sounding really good so far!!! 

Please pray for my summer, friends, if you have the chance.  I know there seems to be a strong demand for prayers right now, so I hate to throw another request in the mix.  If this be God's will for my summer, ... wow!  I'm getting pretty excited about it. 

 I really ain't ready for this.